Sometimes life, feels like a maze that keeps spinning you around and around without a real destination or direction. Or, when you do get to your destination you just have to turn around and go right back to where you came from, not really having gone anywhere? All those repetitive things we do day in and day out…what is the point? There must be a point? Aren’t you supposed to feel this in your 20′s and work through the process. Find your focus, passion and drive and let that carry you on your journey? Or is it undiagognosed ADD that keeps the maze going? Or maybe the fact that time seems to fly by in months and years, where as, when you were a child waiting for school to end seemed like an eternity and sitting for an hour in a church pew felt like a week! Am I just trying to do too much and get it all in and creating my own maze? Does everyone feel this way at certain points in their lives? These are the questions I had to ask myself.
What I have learned is that I am a bit of a perfectionist, and maybe have some obssesive complusive undertones, okay, I can accept this, it’s just how it is. Learning to let some things go and and realizing it doesn’t all have to be done today…an ephinany. Of course I could tell other’s this but in my own mind I wanted all of mine done…that really does say something doesn’t it! Next, life is short…so make sure you live it how you like it! O.K. this one I think I have down! ADD, yup, I’m sure there’s some of that also, Oh well, keeps it interesting and personally I think it’s what makes me a great muli-tasker. Learn, learn, learn, never stop learning. Do, Do Do, never stop doing. Be present and in the game. I’ve learned to enjoy the mundane things and think of it like down time…it’s my meditation! I’m forging new paths in the maze and it’s getting bigger and one of these days I’ll pop out someplace I hadn’t expected and it will all have been worth it. Heck it’s worth it even if I don’t pop out…but I think I will! I’m a late bloomer! That is something I’ve always known!!
I think, perhaps, we should start a “Late Bloomers” fan club on facebook! I will “like” it! Loved your blog today! Having AADD over and undertones…..the “maze” is all mine! XOXOX
Love it, Karin! Here’s to being late bloomers!!!
Yes you do “Do, do, do…” But that has always left the rest of us in amazement, never seen as a character flaw unless we were looking at ourselves in comparison to all you do.
As far as the maze, some days I love it and other days I am so depressed by it. Bipolar seems to be the adjective that fits…
It’s the journey, not the destination — but oh what a whirlwind the journey can be. I guess the destination though might be the end of this life, so maybe I don’t want to run so quickly toward it, albeit in circles